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so thinking is good right.. well somtimes!
and ive been thinking alot about my boy. and it's really been killing me about how mch he doesn't really seem like he cares. i mean one. homecoming, i have been asked one time... and this year, my senior year i was hoping for some really nice or at least some flowers or something. not some lame ass thing on fucking myspace, the one place he doesn't even go on, on the fricken internet. i mean come on just cuz you're my boyfriend doesn't mean you don't have to try, doesn't mean you don't have to put any effort into anything. he's my boyfriend, yet every since we made it "official" it's like he doesn't try. i mean i've done anything for him, i drive so much more down to see him, and i call him everyday, because i miss him, becuase i love him. but no. he doesn't fucking call me back. i honestly don't give a shit how fucking busy you are. if you love someone if you are dating someone, wouldn't you think that that boy would want to tlak to you, and can't spend a day without you.
i've asked one of my best guy friends, and he jut likes this girl and he can't go a whole day without talking to her. because his feelings for her are strong. are good. but what i get is nothing. when i leave messages, he doesn't check them. so what is the point. i know it might just think taht i'm talking about one silly phone call... no its not. i wanted fucking 4 days for his ass this week. and sometimes it's longer. and if it wasn't for me to call him. he woulnd't have talked to me. it's bad enough i don't see him everyday, but to not talk to him.. it's hard and it kills me. yet he doesn't even know.. or know to care.
but i will continue later. it's time for bed.
♥Sam
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